Bedrest, body rest and mental rest....How am I coping?

Well, here goes. I have finally found the urge to write again. Which is pleasant. I get self-satisfaction from it. It seems most people I follow can't maintain their blogs either. I enjoy reading philosophical blogs..or blogs from people I deem interesting. These people are one way one you meet them in person, and another way when they write. It shows the best part about their mind are not fully exposed to the world. Until they start to tap the keyboard (it used to be, 'pick-up a pen'..duh~). Some people just blog to tell people what they did, where they went and what they like to wear. I can't get myself to become interested with such blogs. It's hard to find those who blog, to tell you what they did AND tell you how they feel about doing it, and even sometimes add a spice add their thought to that activity, like how to improve it, or how it would look like if a different type of person did it. I guess, the blogs I follow are written by people who were interesting at one point of time, until they became too involved with their careers/jobs. Such a shame.

Just as an update. The letter from the doctor says, Munira has been put to bedrest until delivery. The sound of that seems lovely, but the till delivery part?? That's a good two months! I think I am in my 3^rd week of bedrest. I had a plan to just enjoy my five days, have the occasional checks on my work email to support the team while I am away, and get involved in a weekly activity of going to antenatal classes. So far it seems to be working. I thought the first week was pleasant. Then the second week came I was getting sick of my living room and kitchen. I was sick of getting my hands wet cutting up ingredients to cook (yes I decided to cook everyday!) and at one point, I just gave up and told my husband..."I HATE cooking!! Please don't make me cook ANYMORE!!". That's funny because he never told me to cook but I actually volunteered. I could be good at it if I put my mind to it. Of course, with everyday hands-on, less disasterous results were achieved (reminiscing on the fried noodles that was waayyyy too black). And bless my wonderful husband, each and every meal I cooked was, in his words 'mmm sedapnya u masak!' (delicious). I could get an honest opinion verbally thus, I started to look out for body language and response. Some days, he would eat more, other days he would eat less. On the days he eats less, or finds it hard to finish it off, I would ask him, did you already eat outside, or what time did you eat earlier. If he didn't eat anytime before he went back, I would assume that meal was less than successful.

Well, now is the beginning of my 3^rd week. I'm starting to feel calmer, and somehow time is flying by faster than before. I guess I have come to terms with the whole bedrest thing. I am sad that I am not allowed to go places. I probably could with extra care and the distance radius from wherever I am to the hospital is about 15 mins away. Though, I still don't dare to go anywhere that is not with my husband. Purely because, I can't imagine if I start bleeding or go into early labour and my husband is not around, my companion would be panicking and I would get them into trouble of getting me to the hospital ASAP. I don't really want to impose that responsibility to others. When I am at home, apart from the normal routine of cleaning and cooking, I guess I am picking up some work from office that needs to be done. Nothing major, just very minor email sending or clarification work. I am still not looking forward to these small tasks (my work is very stressful), but I guess, they give me some level of relief, that I could still be of help, even though I have left the office without preparation and warning. We'll see how that goes.

Moving on to some good news...my baby PUG is here ;) (well, my real baby is still inside me, I am talking about my new car!). Owh how exciting J. I haven't officially received her yet, but I have signed all papers and everything and she will be ready to be picked up in a few days time. Of course, I am nervous financially, new car, new baby, new house..I am jumping to the deep end! But I guess the excitement of getting it, is wonderful. I was just telling my hubby, we are blessed that our medical expenses are fully covered by our companies. Otherwise, we probably would not be able to maintain the same standard of living as we are now.

So how am I coping? Pretty well I think. I am glad I am still well to be able to write this entry, and let us see when the arrival of my wonderful baby boy will be J.